Having completed a moral inventory of my resentments, fears, sex conduct, and other misconducts and having read it to another AA member as I am supposed to do in Step 5, I was initiated into one of the more covertly difficult steps in the 12 step program. Step 6: Were entirely ready to have God [...]
A long time ago, I read a message written on a scrap piece of paper I found in a library book that said, “You don’t know how much you love someone until you’re faced with losing them”. Recently, I lost that someone. For the first time since our turbulent relationship started, I found myself at [...]
A pamphlet in the Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous fellowship told me to try six meetings before deciding if SLAA was for me. I just had my second meeting a few days ago. Meanwhile, I’ve been feeling strange, disconnected, and not sleeping well. I drempt of D. last night, someone I haven’t even thought about [...]
Last night, I did my first S.L.A.A. meeting. Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous. I got to the building where the meeting was being held, a YMCA with several offices and floors. I figured the meeting would be in the basement, and quickly made my escape to the staircase spiraling down. Downstairs, I found a large [...]
Sunday, February 21, 2010
I understand I’m derailing from my latest kick, which has been to splay my sexual-addiction moral inventory online, but I have a problem with an immediacy that can’t be ignored. I’m in love, and it hurts. When you start thinking about lining up about a hundred tea lights around your bathtub, replicating the suicide-scene from [...]
On Christmas day, I was on the other side of town at my girl friend’s place eating food and watching movies. M. had called for a Christmas day hook-up, but I wouldn’t be making it to his place that night. My girlfriend made a good point when I hung up the phone with M. “Did [...]